Sick!

You know that feeling you get when things don't go exactly the way you had planned. The sudden realization that life is slipping away. It may come to you as you are doing the dishes or as you lay awake in bed. The feeling that churns your stomach and makes you feel sick and weak. When you feel devoid of any emotion, you should be angry but you can't...you should cry because you are hurt, but you can't. You just sit there, in silence.
You have just lost your dreams, and realized you were not chasing happiness after all. You are alone except that voice in your head telling you off for being so insanely stupid! You want to react, want to scream back saying it all hasn't been in vain. But you can't. All you can do is sit there, in silence.
It's not a very good feeling at all. The silence defeans you - it is louder than anything else you have heard, you want to make it stop, but you can't...

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