Ummmm I don't have anything to say but I wanna say it nonetheless! It's getting warmer in London and I'm loving it! I hate the cold weather, so I'm glad springs here!
I've not been doing much with myself lately and it kinda gets boring! I'm loving freelancing with Cosmopolitan.co.uk right now, but it's the rest of the boring bit I'm getting terribly sick of.
I kinda regret going home coz I'm sick of staring at the ceiling, staring at the walls.
mygodihopeigetsomefunintomylife! baaaaaaaaaaaaaahh ! I'm happy I need to dance! I need someone to dance with! I need someone to listen to my rants! I need hugs! I need friendly hugs! I miss that !
I need to smoke a ciggie, why? Coz I miss it!
I love being a bad ass! I need to do something wild! I'm trapped........END OFxxxxxxxxxx

I really hate human beings!

I am so fucking pissed off right now, if I owned a motherfucking gun I swear I would've shot around like a mad woman (not at people though!!!)

I am sick of everything ! Yes fine fucking hell I am back to my old depressing self again! I am so angry! Yes, I am a cynic, why because if I don't be one you gonna trample over my dreams and wishes like a fucking elephant would trample a small mouse!

I just hate everything! I don't want to answer to people. I don't wanna live up to other people's expectations of me! I don't need constant nagging and I don't wanna do what I don't wanna do!

If I don't wanna ever work it's my fucking business none of yours. I don't wanna work coz you think I should coz trust me even without work I would do just damn fine!

I don't wanna wait up for people to show up just so that they can leave again! I don't want fake smiles nd fake happiness. I don't need them coz they lead to tears and I goddamn hate tears.

I'm so tired of crying so that you can hear me. But you are so fucking deaf when it comes to me! You all are !

I wanna run away! I don't need responsibility. Let me learn to be responsible for myself then tell me to be responsible for others.


I am so fucking trappped. So claustrophobic in this fucking big world. So lonely in this noisy over populated world.

Just let be me, please !

xxxx