“Homesickness is. . . absolutely nothing. Fifty percent of the people in the world are homesick all the time. You don't really long for another country. You long for something in yourself that you don't have, or haven't been able to find.”

I have little idea who that quote is from but it sums up the way I feel right now. Being the youngest child of my clan I have been the most pampered and spoilt and probably the most rebellious. I have got my way through and have been adored even when I shouldv'e been despised. I guess that has been one of the reasons why I took family and love for granted.
Of late I have been missing my family a lot, and have started whining more than usual. After I returned from India, I started missing life out there, soon after I left for Spain and fell in love with the country. After a merry filled holiday I returned to boredom infused days and nights in London. Now I miss Spain. Spain is not my home, so why am I homesick for it?
The above quote got me thinking about all this homesickness business. I've not known a person who misses HOME, because surely wherever you build up your nest, that is home. Homesickness is indeed just a feeling of emptiness mixed with the fear of being alone.
I've never ever truly lived alone. I've always had someone to keep me company, someone in the nearby room who I could simply sit and gossip with. Ever since I've moved to my new house (which BTW I love!!) I feel empty. Whether I walk around the entire house or poke my head out of the window, I'm not going to get a response. No girly giggles, no shrill voices, no banging of kitchen utensils, absolutely nothing! I think it is this silence that makes you miss what you have had otherwise.
This gets me to another point, humans are lonely people. Even the most social moth finds solace in the occassional self pondering ! So why does loneliness affect so much? If a person prefers to seek comfort in his or her own company we often mock them by calling them a LONER! Life sure is unfair and oh so confusing !
I think I'm at a point in my life where I've just left behind a very vibrant fast-paced lifestyle and I guess this is what has been annoying me. I think people need people, they way light bounces of something to make it beautiful, people need other people to bounce their feelings and emotions of, even if they are not the most philosophical ones.
Does this imply to soulmates though? Are there actually people who your soul is connected to? If so, how are you to know when that connection is made? Doesn't that connection ever fizzle out? Do soulmates make loneliness more bearable? The worst bit about soul mates is you might just meet them at the wrong time...and your life doesn't ever get a meaning then....

Home is where the heart is...but what if your heart longs for a million places !!

Bit too emotional for me...but hey this is what loneliness does to you !! pffft !